I want you to know I read this in the mosque after qiyam prayer when I got the notification on my phone. I read it immediately bc one of my duas this month was for Allah swt to help me with my negative thoughts and to help me not hate myself as much anymore. I still feel like I’m so behind in everything I wanted to do and more and have so much to work through but alas, reading this made me realize I should also maybe write a letter to myself the way you did to forgive yourself. Just because we do not feel a spiritual high does not mean spiritual change isn’t happening. Thank you for writing !
thank you for sharing this with me :’) what a coincidence. i’m sorry you’re also struggling with hating yourself too. i understand the feeling :(. but you should definitely write that letter.
you’re very much ON time. there will always be something to work through and learn, so there will never be an end. i’m proud of you for how far you’ve already come! Insha’Allah we can begin to give ourselves some more grace 🩷
thank you for reading and leaving this comment! sending love ♡
from top to bottom of this page is nothing short of beautiful reflections, a reminder that sometimes we don’t realise we are simply living in our answered duas. i also loved the addition of your letter to your younger self! it made me tear up quite a bit because i also relate so much and could feel the pain and relief in every word you wrote
may Allah (swt) keep good people close to you and bring those good for your faith and your hereafter around you sis. may Allah (swt) bless you with the ability to feel and forgive yourself moving forward
thank you so much :) for reading and sharing this comment, it's bringing me sm joy. it's so true, we really are living in so many answered du'as. may Allah enable us to always be grateful for everything. and i'm here for you 🥺🩷
I was literally DESPARATELY in need of this reminder right after I finished Zuhr some 15 minutes ago, and Subhan Allah Alhamdulillah right after finishing my prayer, I opened my phone to find your article at the top of my feed ✨️
I feel so happy for you. I think everyone can relate to dealing with a not very good past. The shame is real. The wrongness of it is real. But the fact that YOU CAN BE FORGIVEN is also so beautifully, heart-shatteringly real and comforting. Subhan Allah, it's wonderful that Allah granted you this ease, this acceptance, and this relief. This understanding and compassion for your past self. Your letter to your past self made me tear up inside
May Allah forgive us all, shower us, envelop us, drown us in His mercy, and make us His beloved servants 🤲❤️✨️ Ameen.
subhanallah!!! what a coincidence, i'm so honoured and humbled that my post could be a message from Allah to you :( alhamdulillah
thank you so much, your words are incredibly validating. i pray you also get even more ease, acceptance and relief too, Allahumma Ameen!!
🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹
Allahumma Ameen. thank you for reading and sharing your kind words, it means more to me than i can ever express in words so i can only just make du'a for you. may Allah reward you and bless you and forgive you, Ameen 🩷
What to even say that hasn’t been said. You and I both know you’ve come a long way sis, may Allah keep shining the path forward for you. I’ve seen the transformation and ma sha Allah you’re elevating year on year out. May Allah keep the elevation going, and grant us satisfaction in His decree, happy yet bittersweet about our pasts, yet ultimately content, knowing it led us to where we are today.
Was not Umar (ra) a pagan yet became one of the most important sahaba of all time? And does Allah not say He loves the one who repents.
And finally, my fave Hadith of all time. Think about how happy Allah is when we repent, transform, and evolve from a frightened sinning yet traumatised self, into more God conscious beings in the anecdote of the man and his camel: “Allah is more pleased with the repentance of a servant as he turns towards Him for repentance than this that one amongst you is upon the camel in a waterless desert and there is upon (that camel) his provision of food and drink also and it is lost by him, and he having lost all hope (to get tbat) lies down in the shadow and is disappointed about his camel and there he finds that camel standing before him. He takes hold of his nosestring and then out of boundless joy says: 0 Lord, Thou art my servant and I am Thine Lord. He commits this mistake out of extreme delight.” (Muslim)
Allahumma Ameen :) as have i with you. and i can't write something like this without expressing how grateful i am to have had a friend and brother like you to grow up with - someone who's inspired and encouraged me towards good deeds and increased me in my religious knowledge time and time again. now that i think about it - LOL, i think our friendship was always meant to be like this - did it not start with us exploring the MASJID as kids while our parents would be helping out? a righteous guiding friendship from the get go. alhamdulillah.
thank you for these reminders, especially about Umar (ra), that's so true. sin doesn't close up the door for Allah's Mercy, it’s if we ourselves close up our hearts. alhamdulillah.
You are a beautiful person, I love your work and shared it. May Allah protect you. Don’t hesitate to write, you are very raw and real and it’s what we all need to hear and be reminded of. We are all sinners too. And Allah knows. And He SWT created us to make mistakes and find Him. May Allah bless you forgive you elevate you and allow you even deeper forgiveness of yourself.
The letter was incredible. Healing the inner child/inner teen/ inner anything was literally some of the most powerful work I’ve ever done too 🥹❤️💪 I’m incredibly proud of you, MashaAllah. Ive gotten to a point where I write to her often, and ask her for advice when I’m stuck, because she always knows what she needs at the core, keep talking to her, she will learn to love and trust you back. The relationship with yourself is such a beautiful and healing relationship. May Allah protect you and always give you clarity and care.
wow thank you so much!!!! this really means a lot to hear from a coach like yourself 🥹🩷 brb gonna cry... you're incredibly kind, jazakallah khair.
i think i'm going to start writing to her often too. alhamdulillah, i'm glad that you've healed your inner anything and i'm also proud of you!!! i saw this funny post that said 'healed my inner child, now it's time for my inner teen. her highness demands a sword' and it killed me. this one's probably gonna be harder but alhamdulillah that i've started.
Allahumma Ameen ♡ ♡ ♡ i pray the same for you and more too Ameen 🩷 thank you for reading <3333
Love it and they really do !🤣 especially if you were a lil rebel ⚔️ 🤭 hehe, just remember radical Love heals!
One of my favourite quotes is:
“Just add Love to any pain. What if it doesn’t work? Then add more Love. And if that doesn’t work? Keep adding Love until it has no choice but to accept it.”
And as I grew, this is how I started seeing Allah’s infinite Mercy as well 🥹
Thank you for your kindness and appreciation in return, may Allah bring you a journey of ease and upwards healing from here 💛🚀💪✨
This was such a beautiful read, subhan'Allah. I feel that forgiving yourself is such an important part of istaghfar—and definitely one that I majorly struggle with lol. So a massive thank you to you my love for writing so honestly and vulnerably—know that you're giving all of us who are too scared to admit these feelings to ourselves a voice, and may Allah bless you for it 🤎 ameen xx
and yay, i’m glad this came at a time you needed it. that’s always such a great feeling and i’m honoured my post could do that for you. alhamdulillah 🩷
I want you to know I read this in the mosque after qiyam prayer when I got the notification on my phone. I read it immediately bc one of my duas this month was for Allah swt to help me with my negative thoughts and to help me not hate myself as much anymore. I still feel like I’m so behind in everything I wanted to do and more and have so much to work through but alas, reading this made me realize I should also maybe write a letter to myself the way you did to forgive yourself. Just because we do not feel a spiritual high does not mean spiritual change isn’t happening. Thank you for writing !
subhanallah 🩷
thank you for sharing this with me :’) what a coincidence. i’m sorry you’re also struggling with hating yourself too. i understand the feeling :(. but you should definitely write that letter.
you’re very much ON time. there will always be something to work through and learn, so there will never be an end. i’m proud of you for how far you’ve already come! Insha’Allah we can begin to give ourselves some more grace 🩷
thank you for reading and leaving this comment! sending love ♡
This article reminds me of something I like to tell myself which is حسن ظنّ. Have good thoughts about Allah ♡
alhamdulillah !!! i need to start telling myself that more often too :)
Your name is Husna! SubhanAllah what a beautiful lesson to learn 🥹❤️
I didn't even realise 🤭
from top to bottom of this page is nothing short of beautiful reflections, a reminder that sometimes we don’t realise we are simply living in our answered duas. i also loved the addition of your letter to your younger self! it made me tear up quite a bit because i also relate so much and could feel the pain and relief in every word you wrote
may Allah (swt) keep good people close to you and bring those good for your faith and your hereafter around you sis. may Allah (swt) bless you with the ability to feel and forgive yourself moving forward
thank you for sharing !!! 🩵🩵🩵
thank you so much :) for reading and sharing this comment, it's bringing me sm joy. it's so true, we really are living in so many answered du'as. may Allah enable us to always be grateful for everything. and i'm here for you 🥺🩷
Allahumma Ameen, i pray the same for you too ♡
Ameen ya Rabb 🩵 thank you my lovely !!
Jazakallahu khairan katheeran ✨️
I was literally DESPARATELY in need of this reminder right after I finished Zuhr some 15 minutes ago, and Subhan Allah Alhamdulillah right after finishing my prayer, I opened my phone to find your article at the top of my feed ✨️
I feel so happy for you. I think everyone can relate to dealing with a not very good past. The shame is real. The wrongness of it is real. But the fact that YOU CAN BE FORGIVEN is also so beautifully, heart-shatteringly real and comforting. Subhan Allah, it's wonderful that Allah granted you this ease, this acceptance, and this relief. This understanding and compassion for your past self. Your letter to your past self made me tear up inside
May Allah forgive us all, shower us, envelop us, drown us in His mercy, and make us His beloved servants 🤲❤️✨️ Ameen.
subhanallah!!! what a coincidence, i'm so honoured and humbled that my post could be a message from Allah to you :( alhamdulillah
thank you so much, your words are incredibly validating. i pray you also get even more ease, acceptance and relief too, Allahumma Ameen!!
🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹
Allahumma Ameen. thank you for reading and sharing your kind words, it means more to me than i can ever express in words so i can only just make du'a for you. may Allah reward you and bless you and forgive you, Ameen 🩷
Ameen ameeen ✨️ and for you as well ✨️
What to even say that hasn’t been said. You and I both know you’ve come a long way sis, may Allah keep shining the path forward for you. I’ve seen the transformation and ma sha Allah you’re elevating year on year out. May Allah keep the elevation going, and grant us satisfaction in His decree, happy yet bittersweet about our pasts, yet ultimately content, knowing it led us to where we are today.
Was not Umar (ra) a pagan yet became one of the most important sahaba of all time? And does Allah not say He loves the one who repents.
And finally, my fave Hadith of all time. Think about how happy Allah is when we repent, transform, and evolve from a frightened sinning yet traumatised self, into more God conscious beings in the anecdote of the man and his camel: “Allah is more pleased with the repentance of a servant as he turns towards Him for repentance than this that one amongst you is upon the camel in a waterless desert and there is upon (that camel) his provision of food and drink also and it is lost by him, and he having lost all hope (to get tbat) lies down in the shadow and is disappointed about his camel and there he finds that camel standing before him. He takes hold of his nosestring and then out of boundless joy says: 0 Lord, Thou art my servant and I am Thine Lord. He commits this mistake out of extreme delight.” (Muslim)
Allahumma Ameen :) as have i with you. and i can't write something like this without expressing how grateful i am to have had a friend and brother like you to grow up with - someone who's inspired and encouraged me towards good deeds and increased me in my religious knowledge time and time again. now that i think about it - LOL, i think our friendship was always meant to be like this - did it not start with us exploring the MASJID as kids while our parents would be helping out? a righteous guiding friendship from the get go. alhamdulillah.
thank you for these reminders, especially about Umar (ra), that's so true. sin doesn't close up the door for Allah's Mercy, it’s if we ourselves close up our hearts. alhamdulillah.
thank you for reading! jazakallah khair.
You are a beautiful person, I love your work and shared it. May Allah protect you. Don’t hesitate to write, you are very raw and real and it’s what we all need to hear and be reminded of. We are all sinners too. And Allah knows. And He SWT created us to make mistakes and find Him. May Allah bless you forgive you elevate you and allow you even deeper forgiveness of yourself.
The letter was incredible. Healing the inner child/inner teen/ inner anything was literally some of the most powerful work I’ve ever done too 🥹❤️💪 I’m incredibly proud of you, MashaAllah. Ive gotten to a point where I write to her often, and ask her for advice when I’m stuck, because she always knows what she needs at the core, keep talking to her, she will learn to love and trust you back. The relationship with yourself is such a beautiful and healing relationship. May Allah protect you and always give you clarity and care.
wow thank you so much!!!! this really means a lot to hear from a coach like yourself 🥹🩷 brb gonna cry... you're incredibly kind, jazakallah khair.
i think i'm going to start writing to her often too. alhamdulillah, i'm glad that you've healed your inner anything and i'm also proud of you!!! i saw this funny post that said 'healed my inner child, now it's time for my inner teen. her highness demands a sword' and it killed me. this one's probably gonna be harder but alhamdulillah that i've started.
Allahumma Ameen ♡ ♡ ♡ i pray the same for you and more too Ameen 🩷 thank you for reading <3333
Love it and they really do !🤣 especially if you were a lil rebel ⚔️ 🤭 hehe, just remember radical Love heals!
One of my favourite quotes is:
“Just add Love to any pain. What if it doesn’t work? Then add more Love. And if that doesn’t work? Keep adding Love until it has no choice but to accept it.”
And as I grew, this is how I started seeing Allah’s infinite Mercy as well 🥹
Thank you for your kindness and appreciation in return, may Allah bring you a journey of ease and upwards healing from here 💛🚀💪✨
that quote is so beautiful thank you for sharing it with me. i should hang it up on my wall! 🩷
Ameen :)
This was such a beautiful read, subhan'Allah. I feel that forgiving yourself is such an important part of istaghfar—and definitely one that I majorly struggle with lol. So a massive thank you to you my love for writing so honestly and vulnerably—know that you're giving all of us who are too scared to admit these feelings to ourselves a voice, and may Allah bless you for it 🤎 ameen xx
thank you so much :') and honestly, it really is - i'm realising that now.
your words are making me smileeee, it really means a lot to me. thank you so much :( jazakallah khair 🩷 ameen
So beautifully put, really needed to hear this rn!! Allahuma barikk habiibti for all your hard work on this piece 🤍 Love love love
thank you so much :) ! jazakallah khair ♡
and yay, i’m glad this came at a time you needed it. that’s always such a great feeling and i’m honoured my post could do that for you. alhamdulillah 🩷
:’)) thank you for reading <33