This was such a cute and enlightening read اللّهُـمَّ بارِكْ Your attribute of the month posts are the ones I look forward to so much now الحمدلله 🫶🏼
Favorite quote in all this: “i could force the leaf off the tree myself. or i can wait until Allah commands the leaf to fall when He wants it to.”
I love how you write about your experiences, how you write about how you learn or get to a specific learning point after making mistakes in belief, in mindset—although our life experiences may differ, this sentiment of going back to find Allah despite tumbling over our faults over and over again is so relatable. The name of Al-Wadud in this circumstance is so brilliantly well placed سبحان الله
Life gets super messy, and I pray Allah continues to guide you on the straight path, brings barakat to all your affairs, and supplies you with endless goodness امين 🤲 the season of fall is indeed such a wondrous and beautiful time of the year to soak in Allah’s continuous, beautiful creation ☺️ 🍂
this comment means a lot to me, i did the 🥺 face in real life reading it.
thank you so much :’( i really appreciate it and am glad it’s relatable too.
Allahumma Ameen and i pray the same for you and more, Ameen ♡ and subhanallah, yes! autumn is so beautiful :) thank you for reading and leaving this comment 🩷
You know, just like how the fictional superheroes have their 'magic phrase' that unleashes their superpower, I believe that saying 'where is Allah right now?' is the magic phrase to unleash His support within ourselves and really feel His presence within you. At least this is how I think it to be😅
And yes, we absolutely need to stop being such control freaks of our lives. If I cannot even control whether or not my next breath is a guarantee, how can I assume that I have my entire future guaranteed according to how I've planned it?
omg! yes!!!! every time i’ve said this, He comes right down. alhamdulillah, subhanallah. thank you for that reflection :’)
and right — definitely. just need to live our lives the way we should and are meant to (righteously, worshipping Allah and doing our parts) and everything will work out. so much easier in theory but can be so hard to practise during moments of hardship, loneliness, overwhelm. but reflecting on that fact and being reminded of it too is a great help i think :’)
thank you for reading and leaving this comment, i’m so grateful :)
Not entirely related to the post, but right before I read this I was feeling overwhelmed and burnt out at work. So I went to the window and watched the trees and the way the sunlight dances on the ground. I'm lucky to have a window now. While I was standing there, a few orange leaves were falling and I thought "how pretty" and then a gust of wind made the leaves rain down in gorgeous yellows and oranges. All I could think while I stood there was "wow. How beautiful it is that Allah makes the leaves fall in such a way. And how wonderful is it that I'm here to witness it. That I had the chance to stand still and breathe with the wind and leaves"
And then I sat back down feeling better, and opened this app to read a little. And it struck me when I got to the part where you added "No leaf ever falls but that He knows about it (6:60)." Things like this could never be a coincidence. Anyway, this was beautiful and I think I really needed to read it.
subhanallah, thank you so much for sharing this. that’s so profound :’) stories like these where things are too coincidental to be a coincidence are my favourite. i’m honoured that Allah showed you this post after that, it’s so heartwarming. but it’s true—nature is so beautiful and there are so many signs within it that we truly are blessed to stand still, witness it and breathe it all in. i feel like it’s something we should all take some time in our lives to do often. weekly.
i’m sorry that you were feeling overwhelmed and burnt out though—i pray your next shifts feel much better, Ameen. take some you-time! and so happy that you have a window now so you can see the beautiful season! i love autumn so much.
thank you for reading and for leaving this comment, it makes me just so happy 🥰
AHHHH i loved this post. I was going through the same exactttt thing this morning. feeling this huge void while bawling my eyes out talking to Allah where are you? why am i not close? why do i feel so numb and lost. but i often forget Allah is with me all the time. all the blessings that start at the very beginning of my day till the end when my head hits the pillow are all the love He is showering to me. JazakAllah khair 🩷 your words truly spoke to my rūh rn 🥺
no way 🥺 subhanallah, i’m so glad you managed to come across this post so soon after feeling that way then! how beautiful.
right!!! there are so so so many blessings we received daily—*hourly*. may we all recognise them easily and practise so much gratitude, Ameen ♡
thank you for reading and leaving this comment :’) it means a lot to me! and also makes me feel so much less alone. sending a lot of love and hugs your way
Pleasant read. Very scenic. I could feel the wetness of the tree and see the dark bits of bark on my hands. The flip-phone was a fun touch. Gave it early 2000's vibes.
Your journey in the park is making me reflect on my own literal journey as I take the GO bus home alone after an inter-MSA conference.
There are some deeply personal aspects of this specific bus stop that I don't want to share, but it is so very strange, عجيب, how Allah swt takes you places. I took some fun and moody photos of this trip myself and will share them in an upcoming post iA.
Right now, I'm operating on 5 hours of sleep split between two whole days, so I'm riding an interesting adrenal hormonal low and high, irresistably slumbersome one moment and wide alert soon after, the slivers of sleep just before a distant dream.
Love is in the air. Platonic love is very real. It was in the air and the hugs and the drinks and the laughs and the jokes about romantic love. Romantic love was a scent in the air, like the bukhoor from the perfume stalls. But perhaps much, much more faint. Or mayhaps not present at all. But the promise of love is always there.
thank you for this comment, it’s so beautifully written and very prosaic. it’s so strange but also so magical and powerful the way He سُبْحَٰنَهُۥ وَتَعَٰلَىٰ takes us places :’) so glad you seem to have had a similar experience!
and oh goodness, i pray you get some good rest soon Insha’Allah! ‘the promise of love is always there’ :’) alhamdulillah, it’s always there because He is al-Wadood :)
Loved this post so so much as I felt the loneliness part too 🥹 the story with the tree gave me so so much hope!! Thank you so much honestly, may Allah ease your worries and bless you immensely Ameen <33
Masha'Allah such a beautiful story! It's truly in the little moments when we pay attention to our surroundings that we find Allah. I LOVEEE the flip phoneee! I've been wanting one for a a while now. Throw back to when they used to make good technology, now Apple released the same iPhone every year 😪. Thank you for sharing!!
Your story about the tree is moving. Trees are indeed very perceptive beings. They respond to the environment and to us in ways we may not fully understand. That tree felt your pain, your innocence. When it shed its leaves, it was as if it said goodbye, acknowledging your presence. Trees, like many of Allah’s creations, are open to receiving and expressing these subtle energies.
The path to God is a path of love, and love begins with the one who showed us how to love—Prophet Muhammad ﷺ. Above him is Al-Wadood, the ultimate source of love. God has made muwada—love and compassion—an obligation for us in certain relationships, especially with those closest to the Prophet ﷺ. This love, when cultivated sincerely, opens us up to deeper spiritual connections.
I’d like to share something personal with you. There’s a treasure passed on to us from Bibi Fatima AS, the tasbeeh we recite after each farz namaz: 33 times SubhanAllah, 33 times Alhamdulillah, and 34 times Allahu Akbar. For me, this practice became a reflection. With each SubhanAllah, I try to think of something in my life or memory that makes me say it with deep sincerity. It can be as simple as a thread on the prayer mat, reminding me of the journey that brought it there for worship. This tasbeeh isn’t just a routine—it’s a journey of love and remembrance, teaching us how to love God through every small detail.
From the House of Hashim, we’ve inherited this love, chivalry, purity, and saintliness. These are qualities we can all strive to cultivate. What can I say? They have given us everything—Prophethood, the word of Allah, and the secrets of His love.
May you continue on your path of sabr, but also embrace the love and companionship that is written for you, for it too is a manifestation of God’s mercy.
subhanallah, yes :’) nature truly is incredible and the way you’ve described that—the tree shedding its leaves as if it said goodbye—is so sweet and beautiful.
thank you for sharing that personal sentiment! that’s a beautiful tradition of yours. sometimes i do the same with Allah Akbar—if there’s something troubling me, it reminds me that Allah is greater than my problems and if i want something badly, it reminds me that Allah definitely has the power to make it so, if He wills. i think i will start thinking about something that also makes me say subhanallah with deep sincerity too, Insha’Allah. may Allah make it a sadaqah jariya for you and reward you deeply
thank you and jazakallah khair for reading and for this comment ♡ i really appreciate it so much :’)
subhanallah, never have i received a compliment before like my writing 'feels like sujood in written form.' my goodness me. subhanallah. i don't even think i deserve that kind of honour! thank you so much, that really touched me. as did this entire message.
but i didn't say 'i'm learning to ask Allah without fear' here...?
either way, thank you for reading and commenting your kindness and your du'as. may Allah bless you. jazakallah khair
This was such a cute and enlightening read اللّهُـمَّ بارِكْ Your attribute of the month posts are the ones I look forward to so much now الحمدلله 🫶🏼
Favorite quote in all this: “i could force the leaf off the tree myself. or i can wait until Allah commands the leaf to fall when He wants it to.”
I love how you write about your experiences, how you write about how you learn or get to a specific learning point after making mistakes in belief, in mindset—although our life experiences may differ, this sentiment of going back to find Allah despite tumbling over our faults over and over again is so relatable. The name of Al-Wadud in this circumstance is so brilliantly well placed سبحان الله
Life gets super messy, and I pray Allah continues to guide you on the straight path, brings barakat to all your affairs, and supplies you with endless goodness امين 🤲 the season of fall is indeed such a wondrous and beautiful time of the year to soak in Allah’s continuous, beautiful creation ☺️ 🍂
this comment means a lot to me, i did the 🥺 face in real life reading it.
thank you so much :’( i really appreciate it and am glad it’s relatable too.
Allahumma Ameen and i pray the same for you and more, Ameen ♡ and subhanallah, yes! autumn is so beautiful :) thank you for reading and leaving this comment 🩷
You know, just like how the fictional superheroes have their 'magic phrase' that unleashes their superpower, I believe that saying 'where is Allah right now?' is the magic phrase to unleash His support within ourselves and really feel His presence within you. At least this is how I think it to be😅
And yes, we absolutely need to stop being such control freaks of our lives. If I cannot even control whether or not my next breath is a guarantee, how can I assume that I have my entire future guaranteed according to how I've planned it?
omg! yes!!!! every time i’ve said this, He comes right down. alhamdulillah, subhanallah. thank you for that reflection :’)
and right — definitely. just need to live our lives the way we should and are meant to (righteously, worshipping Allah and doing our parts) and everything will work out. so much easier in theory but can be so hard to practise during moments of hardship, loneliness, overwhelm. but reflecting on that fact and being reminded of it too is a great help i think :’)
thank you for reading and leaving this comment, i’m so grateful :)
Not entirely related to the post, but right before I read this I was feeling overwhelmed and burnt out at work. So I went to the window and watched the trees and the way the sunlight dances on the ground. I'm lucky to have a window now. While I was standing there, a few orange leaves were falling and I thought "how pretty" and then a gust of wind made the leaves rain down in gorgeous yellows and oranges. All I could think while I stood there was "wow. How beautiful it is that Allah makes the leaves fall in such a way. And how wonderful is it that I'm here to witness it. That I had the chance to stand still and breathe with the wind and leaves"
And then I sat back down feeling better, and opened this app to read a little. And it struck me when I got to the part where you added "No leaf ever falls but that He knows about it (6:60)." Things like this could never be a coincidence. Anyway, this was beautiful and I think I really needed to read it.
Thank you 💕
subhanallah, thank you so much for sharing this. that’s so profound :’) stories like these where things are too coincidental to be a coincidence are my favourite. i’m honoured that Allah showed you this post after that, it’s so heartwarming. but it’s true—nature is so beautiful and there are so many signs within it that we truly are blessed to stand still, witness it and breathe it all in. i feel like it’s something we should all take some time in our lives to do often. weekly.
i’m sorry that you were feeling overwhelmed and burnt out though—i pray your next shifts feel much better, Ameen. take some you-time! and so happy that you have a window now so you can see the beautiful season! i love autumn so much.
thank you for reading and for leaving this comment, it makes me just so happy 🥰
AHHHH i loved this post. I was going through the same exactttt thing this morning. feeling this huge void while bawling my eyes out talking to Allah where are you? why am i not close? why do i feel so numb and lost. but i often forget Allah is with me all the time. all the blessings that start at the very beginning of my day till the end when my head hits the pillow are all the love He is showering to me. JazakAllah khair 🩷 your words truly spoke to my rūh rn 🥺
no way 🥺 subhanallah, i’m so glad you managed to come across this post so soon after feeling that way then! how beautiful.
right!!! there are so so so many blessings we received daily—*hourly*. may we all recognise them easily and practise so much gratitude, Ameen ♡
thank you for reading and leaving this comment :’) it means a lot to me! and also makes me feel so much less alone. sending a lot of love and hugs your way
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Pleasant read. Very scenic. I could feel the wetness of the tree and see the dark bits of bark on my hands. The flip-phone was a fun touch. Gave it early 2000's vibes.
Your journey in the park is making me reflect on my own literal journey as I take the GO bus home alone after an inter-MSA conference.
There are some deeply personal aspects of this specific bus stop that I don't want to share, but it is so very strange, عجيب, how Allah swt takes you places. I took some fun and moody photos of this trip myself and will share them in an upcoming post iA.
Right now, I'm operating on 5 hours of sleep split between two whole days, so I'm riding an interesting adrenal hormonal low and high, irresistably slumbersome one moment and wide alert soon after, the slivers of sleep just before a distant dream.
Love is in the air. Platonic love is very real. It was in the air and the hugs and the drinks and the laughs and the jokes about romantic love. Romantic love was a scent in the air, like the bukhoor from the perfume stalls. But perhaps much, much more faint. Or mayhaps not present at all. But the promise of love is always there.
Well penned. Keep it up.
thank you for this comment, it’s so beautifully written and very prosaic. it’s so strange but also so magical and powerful the way He سُبْحَٰنَهُۥ وَتَعَٰلَىٰ takes us places :’) so glad you seem to have had a similar experience!
and oh goodness, i pray you get some good rest soon Insha’Allah! ‘the promise of love is always there’ :’) alhamdulillah, it’s always there because He is al-Wadood :)
Might have shed a tear or two reading this.
I've always felt this deep sense of longing and wanting to connect with Allah and knowing that He's always right by my side.
I've learnt that everything works by His will so I shouldn't force things
aw sweetheart :’) may Allah strengthen your relationship with Him x1000, Ameen. sending lots of love ♡
Ameen thank you 🤍
Loved this post so so much as I felt the loneliness part too 🥹 the story with the tree gave me so so much hope!! Thank you so much honestly, may Allah ease your worries and bless you immensely Ameen <33
yay !!! :’) thank you for reading. i’m so glad. Ameen and same for you, Ameen ♡
Masha'Allah such a beautiful story! It's truly in the little moments when we pay attention to our surroundings that we find Allah. I LOVEEE the flip phoneee! I've been wanting one for a a while now. Throw back to when they used to make good technology, now Apple released the same iPhone every year 😪. Thank you for sharing!!
Your story about the tree is moving. Trees are indeed very perceptive beings. They respond to the environment and to us in ways we may not fully understand. That tree felt your pain, your innocence. When it shed its leaves, it was as if it said goodbye, acknowledging your presence. Trees, like many of Allah’s creations, are open to receiving and expressing these subtle energies.
The path to God is a path of love, and love begins with the one who showed us how to love—Prophet Muhammad ﷺ. Above him is Al-Wadood, the ultimate source of love. God has made muwada—love and compassion—an obligation for us in certain relationships, especially with those closest to the Prophet ﷺ. This love, when cultivated sincerely, opens us up to deeper spiritual connections.
I’d like to share something personal with you. There’s a treasure passed on to us from Bibi Fatima AS, the tasbeeh we recite after each farz namaz: 33 times SubhanAllah, 33 times Alhamdulillah, and 34 times Allahu Akbar. For me, this practice became a reflection. With each SubhanAllah, I try to think of something in my life or memory that makes me say it with deep sincerity. It can be as simple as a thread on the prayer mat, reminding me of the journey that brought it there for worship. This tasbeeh isn’t just a routine—it’s a journey of love and remembrance, teaching us how to love God through every small detail.
From the House of Hashim, we’ve inherited this love, chivalry, purity, and saintliness. These are qualities we can all strive to cultivate. What can I say? They have given us everything—Prophethood, the word of Allah, and the secrets of His love.
May you continue on your path of sabr, but also embrace the love and companionship that is written for you, for it too is a manifestation of God’s mercy.
subhanallah, yes :’) nature truly is incredible and the way you’ve described that—the tree shedding its leaves as if it said goodbye—is so sweet and beautiful.
thank you for sharing that personal sentiment! that’s a beautiful tradition of yours. sometimes i do the same with Allah Akbar—if there’s something troubling me, it reminds me that Allah is greater than my problems and if i want something badly, it reminds me that Allah definitely has the power to make it so, if He wills. i think i will start thinking about something that also makes me say subhanallah with deep sincerity too, Insha’Allah. may Allah make it a sadaqah jariya for you and reward you deeply
thank you and jazakallah khair for reading and for this comment ♡ i really appreciate it so much :’)
im smiling. BarakAllahu feeki <3
Thank you for this 🤍
subhanallah, never have i received a compliment before like my writing 'feels like sujood in written form.' my goodness me. subhanallah. i don't even think i deserve that kind of honour! thank you so much, that really touched me. as did this entire message.
but i didn't say 'i'm learning to ask Allah without fear' here...?
either way, thank you for reading and commenting your kindness and your du'as. may Allah bless you. jazakallah khair
hey shana :) thank you sm for reading and leaving this comment! ♡ i’m so glad you liked it. sending lots of love <33