JazakiAllah for your heartfelt story. What you went through is natural, almost inevitable for someone with your story. You have lived so many lives, tried to be so many different people, just to find one version of yourself that others would love. It’s quite understandable. You were chasing what most of us are: connection, recognition, love. And for a while, it probably felt like you could earn it. But as you have realized, love that you have to perform for isn’t love at all. It is exhausting, temporary, and ultimately hollow.
You said, “I can’t force people to like me”. That realization is profound. It is the moment the façade cracks, and you step into something real, something that Allah has always wanted for you. In Islam, we are taught that our worth doesn’t come from how others see us, but from our relationship with Allah and how we carry ourselves in this world. The love you are chasing? It is already written for you, in the hearts of those who are meant to love you for who you are, not for what you do.
When you said, “I have to be something… smart, pretty, enough to be seen,” that was touching. But look at where you are now. You have stopped trying to fill a void with attention that never lasts. You are breaking free from the cycle of conditional love that tied you to your past. This isn’t weakness or loss. It is maturity. It is you recognizing that Allah made you enough from the very beginning. Your existence, your presence, your soul. That is where your value lies, and it has never been tied to anyone else’s approval.
You don’t need the applause. You don’t need the performance. Allah sees you. The people who truly love you will see you. And in choosing to love yourself, as Allah already does, you have found something far more valuable than the fleeting attention you once chased. You’ve found freedom.
May Allah fill our hearts with contentment, and make us confident in the person He created us to be. Ameen.
i've tried to find the right words to reply to this all day and still haven't quite found them. this was such a kind and heartfelt comment to wake up to this morning :'((( i cannot thank you enough. jazakallah khair x100000. the way you write is so moving.
"It is the moment the façade cracks, and you step into something real, something that Allah has always wanted for you"
"And in choosing to love yourself, as Allah already does, you have found something far more valuable than the fleeting attention you once chased. You’ve found freedom" :))))
subhanallah :') thank you so much. this brought me such comfort and also made me tear up a lot. thank you for reading so attentively to my story too. you're right :') i have found freedom. i feel like a bird! "Your existence, your presence, your soul. That is where your value lies" i think i'll pin this to my forehead. that's so nice of you. thank you.
Ameen to your du'a :) may Allah bless you and allow you to have such nearness to Him, Ameen
The pain of not fitting in and not knowing who you are and who you want to be is soo hard. I had that experience in uni unfortunately. But those experiences are necessary for growth and Alhamdulillah I have a much better understanding of myself now. Masha'Allah I'm proud of the growth you've had and though those experiences were hard, like you said you're so young right now and when you look back at your life you'll be glad you had those experiences early on. May the next year be filled with more personal growth and confidence for us all Insha'Allah!
i'm so sorry you had that experience :( you're not alone in that feeling. sending hugs through the screen. i'm so glad you also have a better understanding of yourself too! with hardship comes ease fr... ♡
thank you so much :') Ameen! sending sooooo much love to you, Leena! happy new year ♡
mabrook! i’m beyond proud of the person you’ve become and the person you’re becoming. you’ve come a long way and it’s amazing to see. thanks for letting us be part of your story. may Allah continue to bless you and guide you on your journey. mashaAllah
i'm proud of the person you've become, sabrgirl. and you can only get better, bi idni llāh! thank you so much for taking us along in your experiences by sharing them with us!💕
JazakiAllah for your heartfelt story. What you went through is natural, almost inevitable for someone with your story. You have lived so many lives, tried to be so many different people, just to find one version of yourself that others would love. It’s quite understandable. You were chasing what most of us are: connection, recognition, love. And for a while, it probably felt like you could earn it. But as you have realized, love that you have to perform for isn’t love at all. It is exhausting, temporary, and ultimately hollow.
You said, “I can’t force people to like me”. That realization is profound. It is the moment the façade cracks, and you step into something real, something that Allah has always wanted for you. In Islam, we are taught that our worth doesn’t come from how others see us, but from our relationship with Allah and how we carry ourselves in this world. The love you are chasing? It is already written for you, in the hearts of those who are meant to love you for who you are, not for what you do.
When you said, “I have to be something… smart, pretty, enough to be seen,” that was touching. But look at where you are now. You have stopped trying to fill a void with attention that never lasts. You are breaking free from the cycle of conditional love that tied you to your past. This isn’t weakness or loss. It is maturity. It is you recognizing that Allah made you enough from the very beginning. Your existence, your presence, your soul. That is where your value lies, and it has never been tied to anyone else’s approval.
You don’t need the applause. You don’t need the performance. Allah sees you. The people who truly love you will see you. And in choosing to love yourself, as Allah already does, you have found something far more valuable than the fleeting attention you once chased. You’ve found freedom.
May Allah fill our hearts with contentment, and make us confident in the person He created us to be. Ameen.
i've tried to find the right words to reply to this all day and still haven't quite found them. this was such a kind and heartfelt comment to wake up to this morning :'((( i cannot thank you enough. jazakallah khair x100000. the way you write is so moving.
"It is the moment the façade cracks, and you step into something real, something that Allah has always wanted for you"
"And in choosing to love yourself, as Allah already does, you have found something far more valuable than the fleeting attention you once chased. You’ve found freedom" :))))
subhanallah :') thank you so much. this brought me such comfort and also made me tear up a lot. thank you for reading so attentively to my story too. you're right :') i have found freedom. i feel like a bird! "Your existence, your presence, your soul. That is where your value lies" i think i'll pin this to my forehead. that's so nice of you. thank you.
Ameen to your du'a :) may Allah bless you and allow you to have such nearness to Him, Ameen
The pain of not fitting in and not knowing who you are and who you want to be is soo hard. I had that experience in uni unfortunately. But those experiences are necessary for growth and Alhamdulillah I have a much better understanding of myself now. Masha'Allah I'm proud of the growth you've had and though those experiences were hard, like you said you're so young right now and when you look back at your life you'll be glad you had those experiences early on. May the next year be filled with more personal growth and confidence for us all Insha'Allah!
i'm so sorry you had that experience :( you're not alone in that feeling. sending hugs through the screen. i'm so glad you also have a better understanding of yourself too! with hardship comes ease fr... ♡
thank you so much :') Ameen! sending sooooo much love to you, Leena! happy new year ♡
It is a painful PAIN INDEED.
We are going to be OKAY🤗
Aamiin ya Rabb
we so are :') !!! Insha’Allah ♡
mabrook! i’m beyond proud of the person you’ve become and the person you’re becoming. you’ve come a long way and it’s amazing to see. thanks for letting us be part of your story. may Allah continue to bless you and guide you on your journey. mashaAllah
omg thank you sm i'm sobbing :'(((
jazakallah khair x infinity
thank you for reading. your presence here is always so so so appreciated and loved. sending hugs through the screen ♡
Ameen i pray the same for you too :))
i'm proud of the person you've become, sabrgirl. and you can only get better, bi idni llāh! thank you so much for taking us along in your experiences by sharing them with us!💕
:"))) thank you so much, jazakallah khair ♡ i'm so happy
may Allāh give you more reasons to be happy, ukthee.💕
i pray the same for you my love ♡
asalamunaleykum
i love ur posts Allahuma barik:))
ur truly a blessing!!!:D<3
wa alaikum salam wa rahmatullah ♡
aww thank you so much this is so sweet :')
Just read this in 2025, amazing reflection. May Allah grant you goodness in dunya & akhirah and bless your journey ahead! Ameen.
omg i just came across this comment now, i'm so sorry for my late response. thank you so much!!! Ameen, i pray the same for you too Ameen <333
Love you so much Sabr girl♥️🫂
Thank youuuuu for sharing the beauty of your life with us
:') love you so much more ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡
Super amazing way to be yourself!
You doing just FINE!
HAPPY FOR YOU,DEAR SIS🎉
Appreciate you sharing your quest to self discovery.
Cheers🎉
thank you so much, this is so kind. tearing up, literally 🥹 sending so much love and hugs
Glad to virtually meet you😊
me too :) ♡